Old Entry....

I had auditions for the Wizard of Oz today, and I went out for Dorothy. I have always wanted to be Dorothy, ever since I was a little girl, so I decided this was my chance. I am not a fantastic singer, I would say about mediocre, but I just went for it. I'm proud of myself for not backing down, and even if I don't get the part, I'm glad that I tried.

Here's an entry I found in a journal from this past summer. This was one that I wrote at night when I couldn't fall asleep...I think that things with lots of imagery are very effective at helping you fall asleep. So anyway....here it is. If you read this, please just do me a favor and comment...I would love to know if anyone is reading these...I'll keep posting if no one is reading, but if anyone is....it would greatly increase my level of happy today. So here it is:

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The waves overtake her, crashing down on her head, sucking her under. She tries to scream but instead she takes in the salty water that fills her ears like cotton and dulls the sounds around her. The necessary breath for survival will not come to her now; she cannot be saved. She feels like she is on fire despite the icy cold water rushing all around her. She cries out, her voice choking and bubbling under the water as she gives up her only hope. The panic rises in her chest until it is all that she can feel. Her heart beats with it, her veins pulse with its rush of emotion. She wishes she could take one more breath of the clear, sharp air before she dies. She slowly opens her eyes and is greeted with a smear of blue and green. She looks up and sees the sky. A dark shadow of a seagull passes over her head, making a cookie-cutter shape out of the sun. He flies away and suddenly she wishes she could fly too. She could fly out of the water and away from this cold nightmare. Away into the clear blue sky, flying with a soaring heart...she is flying, even with the clouds, touching the sun...and everything is black.

"What Death Must Be Like"

Heartbreak = new poetry.

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Tears fall and echo in my ear
Hard drops falling from a sea of blue
Chills run up and down my spine
Surely this is what death must be like

Betrayal and secrets fly like arrows
Each shot taken with perfect aim
To tear endless holes in my heart

And all I want is to go blank
Hear, see, feel no more
But your voice echoes in my dreams
Your eyes hidden in my sight
All I feel is a cold fire
Sinking my heart and filling my stomach with pain.

"A Simple Love Poem"

Very simple, not a lot of imagery, but hopefully the contrast of the adjectives gets my point across :) Hope everyone had a great Monday!

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Love
is defined as
passion
lust
fun
always
perfect

Love
is
difficult
easy
happy
sad
crazy
unexplainable
unexpected
planned
desire
pure
muddy
near
far
comfortable
scary
new
old
timeless
never
always
perfect

I miss green...

Feeling a lot of change...and also feeling very happy about it...it's not that scary, I feel out of control" change, it's that "okay, I'm ready, I can do this and I'm excited" change. I'm also longing for some kind of green. I hate winter. So here is a poem that I was inspired to write about life and nature and things that aren't buried in snow...

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Daffodils swaying in the breeze
Birds singing in the trees
Oh, what I would give to be
A whistling wind
Flying cross the seas

All the world expels its woe
Flowers blooming as they grow
If only the world turned half as slow
And everyone's story
You could get to know

Life flies by like waves from a shore
Blue and white and so much more
But if there ever was one cure
There would never be anything
To live life for