Old Entry....

I had auditions for the Wizard of Oz today, and I went out for Dorothy. I have always wanted to be Dorothy, ever since I was a little girl, so I decided this was my chance. I am not a fantastic singer, I would say about mediocre, but I just went for it. I'm proud of myself for not backing down, and even if I don't get the part, I'm glad that I tried.

Here's an entry I found in a journal from this past summer. This was one that I wrote at night when I couldn't fall asleep...I think that things with lots of imagery are very effective at helping you fall asleep. So anyway....here it is. If you read this, please just do me a favor and comment...I would love to know if anyone is reading these...I'll keep posting if no one is reading, but if anyone is....it would greatly increase my level of happy today. So here it is:

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The waves overtake her, crashing down on her head, sucking her under. She tries to scream but instead she takes in the salty water that fills her ears like cotton and dulls the sounds around her. The necessary breath for survival will not come to her now; she cannot be saved. She feels like she is on fire despite the icy cold water rushing all around her. She cries out, her voice choking and bubbling under the water as she gives up her only hope. The panic rises in her chest until it is all that she can feel. Her heart beats with it, her veins pulse with its rush of emotion. She wishes she could take one more breath of the clear, sharp air before she dies. She slowly opens her eyes and is greeted with a smear of blue and green. She looks up and sees the sky. A dark shadow of a seagull passes over her head, making a cookie-cutter shape out of the sun. He flies away and suddenly she wishes she could fly too. She could fly out of the water and away from this cold nightmare. Away into the clear blue sky, flying with a soaring heart...she is flying, even with the clouds, touching the sun...and everything is black.